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Monday, January 12, 2009
Imitation of Life
Posted by Pristine Lady at Monday, January 12, 2009 1 comments
Labels: co-dependency, control, coping, destructive, fear, rape, recovery, relationships, self, self discovery, shame
Sunday, January 11, 2009
The Decision Maker
I realized recently that I make a lot of decisions and then either don't act on them fully or at all. I decided the other day that I needed to figure out what was going on with a relationship I was kinda in... and so I decided to handle it a little differently. I usually see problems in relationships and allow them to sit and fester until they are unbearable or worse yet bitch about them until my partner gives in due to exhaustion. After my last relationship landed me in therapy I realized I needed to handle things a bit differently. Its been 2 years, since the end of my last relationship, I will get to that in just a few more posts....
Posted by Pristine Lady at Sunday, January 11, 2009 0 comments
Wednesday, October 24, 2007
Thanking God for Something
I am home sick trying to stay out of the rain!! I was thinking about how many times this year I faced a personal challenge and decided I was going to stick it out and make it a victory, when I thought about it one of the things I was giving myself credit for happened last year!! I was giving myself a big ole pat on the back for surviving the diagnosis of my daughter with Cancer, she is fine now... and we made it through the whole thing but I don't rememeber when I realized it was over... and when I did I don't remember if I thanked GOD for the experience. I know I thanked him for saving my daughter, I know I thanked him for giving me the strength, but I don't remember truly appreciating the experience. I remember saying "why me" and moaning about being put in such a horrible position... I just don't remember when I realized not only is my relationship stronger with my daughter, but with God. Since the day I got the news that my 3 year old needed surgery and might be crippled for life and the day they told me she had gone into remission and she went on to be a gymnast and ballerina... my faith has been increased, I have been increased. That experience gave me the strength I needed to do all the things I have done since. So much has happened since she was diagnosed, and together we have grown tremendously through the experience, but I just don't remember thanking GOD for the experience... you can look at how bad a situation is and never be grateful for the lessons learned in the midst of it all. Now as I ascend from the valley (where I grew so much and prayed so hard to leave) I have to remind myself to be grateful for the experiences learned there... and to reflect occassionally on them in order to continue to appreciate the mountaintop experiences I am walking into now.
Posted by Pristine Lady at Wednesday, October 24, 2007 0 comments
Wednesday, October 10, 2007
Begin Again Lady... Begin Again
I have never been one to linger in the dark things that have happened to me. All the pain I have experienced I quickly let go and continued without fear. Other people don't always understand me or my reactions and that makes them nervous.
Posted by Pristine Lady at Wednesday, October 10, 2007 0 comments
Labels: coping, fear, rape, recovery, self, self discovery, shame